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What Can I Do?
Thursday, January 31, 6:31 PM
Class was okay. Juan and I partnered up for biology class. After school was a bit of ballroom, and I left with Christina. We walked home, and there was this huge ass hole in the wall that used to cover my backyard. Some drunk driver crashed into it during our lunchtime. Now my house's even more ghetto. I really didn't know how to react. We just changed into active wear and my house and left as soon as we could. I didn't want to deal with it at the time. During the walk back to school, I was hysterical. I wanted to laugh, not believing what happened. I felt paranoid that hooligans would trespass into my backyard and harrass us. I thought people would be dealing drugs in my backyard in the middle of the night. I have no relatives to stay with, and my friend's family wouldn't let a stranger in. The wall's not being fixed until late spring. I guess I'm upset.
Eat at Stanley's
Sunday, January 27, 7:58 PM
We went Iceskating. Andrew arrived a few minutes after Gayle helped me put on skates. I didn't want to go at first due to the bad weather, but I'm glad I came. Nguyen was busy taking care of her brother, and once again, couldn't make it. We skated; I was the fish out of water. Gayle and Andrew took my hands and guided me across the rink as I called them Mommy and Daddy. Afterwards, we played billards upstairs in Stanley's. There was a sign clearly stating we needed parental supervision, but we said "screw that", and went in. We sucked, but Andrew was faring well. Rainie came afterwards. We haven't seen each other since MESA day in 8th grade. We ordered pizza at the restaurant. There was bellpepper instead of pineapples. The chicken was dry as croutons. Gayle wasn't hungry so I ate 3 slices, yes I'm a pig. We videotaped it too. We talked and conversed, then people went home.
Off of Tully
Saturday, January 26, 11:28 PM
I woke up. Phuc missed his SATs. That's a shame. Headed to the library later. I met a quxiotic man at the bus stop, the bus runs ever half hour on weekends. We had a lively talk about life in general. I got there, and saw Chris. We skimmed through the library, no sign of my BMUN partner.Then there were the Otter Bowl kids, I'm glad they let me in. I pulled out my laptop and instant messaged Phuc, who was on the other side of the library. I told him to walk over, and he did. It was easy. Then we moved to the tables outside. We researched, he shared with me some snacks. Italy has some major issues to resolve. Phuc had dream analysis books, I used to be so into those. My dad came, and drove me home. The weather was nice today. I had catfish served over rice tonight. I went back on AIM, Phuc and I got work done. Gayle was worried over little things, but in a cute way. I talked to people, rarely. I solved some people's problems, or I hoped I helped. The rain's back on. Research's too tiring.
Red Cross Blood Drive
Friday, January 25, 10:28 PM
Math class was just a day of review, no notes. After break, I skipped biology. Not sure if I would’ve been able to handle showing up anyways. I walked with Kevin and volunteered with Red Cross instead. I directed people to the empty buses which actually means, point at the left bus or the right bus. Phuc was done giving blood, and so were Victor and Nina. Michelle was giving out crackers and water. I was happy being here. I was still standing alone while the others were in the inside. Phuc partnered up with me, but I knew he didn’t want to be out here. Thomas was standing by the entrance of Dahl Hall, just staring into space. And I was happy being out there for a bit, so when Thomas came out to check up on us, Phuc went inside Dahl Hall and left us there. However, Thomas went back inside within a few seconds. I got cold. I walked to Dahl Hall after the last person I directed. So they asked Kevin to take over my shift. How sad, Kevin always gets the dirty work. And inside the room were the 5 volunteers, and some people who wanted to chill out in there after giving blood. What a nice day, it was raining though. Victor and Nina went back to their classes. Erik was on his PSP. Then we went on Youtube on Phuc's laptop. There was this German kid yelling at the computer screen cause his game wouldn't load fast enough. Shawn showed us a Japanese cartoon on using the toilet. I wasn't too interested, but I was happy cause everyone was sitting down. Nothing crazy happened. It was so relaxed. Some girls came back in and told us they couldn't give blood because they didn't weigh enough. So the requirements are, aged 16; weighing more than 110 pounds. You have to bring your ID, and fill out paperwork. Parent permission too. The guy from the Red Cross talked to me first; commending us for hosting the Blood Drive this time even though the weather was funky. Then he came in later, and talked to the rest of us. They're having another blood drive in the cafeteria with Club Med again in the spring. Lunch came, but I just stayed inside. I didn't bother getting lunch. In short weeks, they never sell pick up Styks. It wouldn't be worth it, it was raining too much. Angela and Jenny came in, they were volunteering for 7th period.We heard some girls fainted from the sight of their own blood. Thomas was the only one really worried about them. Phuc lent me his labtop and I was searching for Chinese New years recipes. I kept asking the girls' opinions on whether they liked dumplings or wontons. Lunch ended, the bell rang. Michelle said I should run back to class now. English was boring as always. After school, I met Danny and Michelle. Since Mr. Dee's room was closed, I invited them to watch Ballroom club practice. It's too bad they didn't participate. Jeffrey and Katherine weren't at practice. Only a few people showed, but it didn't stop us. Cyrus learned a lot today. Cyrus was hyper. He did cartwheels. We met up with Phuc, after his TOK. We were supposed to be starting on our position paper for Italy, but well interruptions were big. I saw familiar faces in the room. Michelle and Danny asked me why I was so smiley. They probably knew why, but not who this time. Dieu stepped into the room. Oh gosh, I screamed. He loves touching people. It never disturbed me much until this date. I screamed and hurt Danny's ears. I hid behind Michelle, but she was scared too. I made her my honorary sister that moment. The Dieu paused, "Um Safe Sex." Everyone said, "What the Heck?"" I did too, well no, I just screamed more. Well, I discovered later Dieu’s evil plan of having Safe Sex day on Valentines. I could rant on how this romantic Hallmark holiday woulc be turned into a “get in her pants” holiday, but I won’t tonight.He went away. People were heading home. I walked out the door. In the hall, I saw Louie, Tina, Erik and Axoul. They were talking about the hot senior girls who graduated last year. Weird, and it got weirder. Cadets came out of Volleyball practice. Sophmore Steven accused me of having phone sex with Axoul, and I remarked, "Why no! I'm having phone sex with you. Was I good?" He did get freaked out.Then boring things happened. Jessica, Louie and Tina were super hungry. The girls were broke, and I offered to pay if we went out to eat, but the girls didn't want to walk. It was annoying; we pointlessly argued for 45 minutes. Then they wanted to go into the ROTC building. No one wanted to knock, so I did. Sometimes, people can be such wimps. We waited in the ROTC building. I called my dad; the rain wasn't going to clear up. I wished I could’ve been home sooner. I was hungry. My weekend started.
Heated Letter from the Past
Thursday, January 24, 10:55 PM
Okay, I haven't cleared out my Yahoo Notes. I found this letter we wrote in Mr. Taub's class, addressing Global Warming. We were told to write to a Congress person of our choice. This was written exactly a year ago in this month. We got letters back from each person we wrote to. The reply letter I recieved, was the most personalized. His/Her's secretary seemed to have snipped and pasted some paragraphs to each reply letter. Mine was unique. I believe I wrote another letter to Mike Honda. It's funny, I think I might've known who was working in his office. I laugh, I was so happy to find this. My writing's gotten better. I sort've BSed it, but Mr. Taub attached the flash media project I made on Global Warming. It still impresses me to this date. I lost it though, I researched more than required.
Sylvandale Leadership Class of '06-'07
Addressed to Zoe Lofgren: Why is it that our state flag depicts a brown Californian Grizzly Bear, when the subspecies are now extinct? In the interest of the environment which has no voice for itself, there are to date 500 species of fauna, wildlife, on the endangered list. According to a 1998 survey of 400 biologists conducted by New York's American Museum of Natural History, biologists predict that 20 percent of all living species could become extinct thirty years from now. While technology advances, our ecosystem is facing a growing crisis. A controversial issue has a possible controversial factor, Global Warming.The late coming of spring and the delayal of winter does more than change temperature. Hibernation periods are interrupted; the animals have little time to adjust before hunting season. Each winter cold climate creatures strive to find ice and are forced to swim miles farther up to the polar ice caps, and so it appears the ice caps are vanishing as well. As the ice melts, the ocean level rises.With that fact, floods and natural disasters are right on track. The Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPCC), estimated that 150 million environmental refugees will exist in the year 2050, due mainly to the effects of coastal flooding, shoreline erosion and agricultural disruption.That’s yet to happen, but humans are already aware their homes will be lost.Pacific Ocean island nations, such as Tuvalu, are concerned about the possibility of an eventual evacuation, as flood defense may become economically inviable for them. Already, a pact with New Zealand secures phased relocation. A similar situation you’ve heard about occurred; Hurricane Katrina was announced to hit the Floridian coast, but nobody had a plan... The hottest weather have all been in the past 15 years. Drought, heat waves and unstable weather cause some of the worst agricultural conditions on Earth. Forest fires start more often in hotter climates, and the majority of counties in California turn to orange alert when summer hits.Global warming occurs when carbon dioxide (greenhouses gases) gets trapped in the atmosphere;obviously, plants absorb carbon dioxide and release oxygen, what do you think helps the air quality? In theory, if we had so much part in global warming, we can correct our ways for the better. We urge you to ratify the Kyoto treaty and support businesses pushing to inform others about energy efficiency. As a regular citizen of the Earth, let’s try planting a garden as a New Year’s resolution. Limit fuel wasting electronics. Recycle, don’t burn waste. Use power alternatives, example: Instead of the infamous dryer, try solar powered laundry. Take a walk or use the bus when you can to reduce carbon emissions from the car. It’s about being creative, to add you could find yourself with extra money in your pocket when you really try. Sincerely,
Kathy K. Pham
I want to Dance with Somebody
, 7:57 PM
I did good in my French finals. It's the darn scantron that couldn't read my bubbles, and marked 2 of my answers wrong. It's not a big deal though. We're drawing animals from the Chinese zodiac as our new project in Mr. Seeberger's class. PE was such a bore. I will totally get sick of it one day. We are going to do a ballroom unit soon. Afterschool, I dragged Micheal into dancing with ballroom. He's such a natural. Chelsea and Angel were there in the cafeteria, but only Angel was dancing. Jeffrey joked that I was a big flirt with Micheal, but whatever, no harm done. Cyrus came in later, but didn't dance with us this time. I got home, wishing I had the time for a nap. I dressed in my cheer uniform. I came to school at six, and there was nobody. Then I met up with the rest of the girls in the warm counseling office. Coach called to tell us we didn't have to come, that was a little too late.
Pedigrees are for Pets
Wednesday, January 23, 9:31 PM
I feel good. I didn't want to get back to school, but wow, I'm glad to be back. We had a sub in geometry, and we got to talk after copying down 5.5-5.6 notes. Nice, then in biology we changed seatings. Our new unit is on genetics. Now, I'm not bad on that but the lame assignments always are a hassle. It's usually on family pedigrees, trees and what not. I never have anything to put on. That feels so crappy, genetics could be a fun subject, but family related assignments get me no where. I truely remember watching old game shows like Family Feud, where they had the whole family participating in the events. I'd secretly wish that our family could be as close, even as weird as those families were. I minimize the contact I have with family members; I don't talk to them and they don't talk to me. Really, people tell me to try to bond with them, but why is it worth it anymore? We aren't even genetically related. Ah...How can I explain this? And in class, I felt the abandonment and lonliness as I did in early school years. During kindergarden, I had Miss Sandy's class. I remember her dearly, there were countless good times being in her classroom. Most of the students were nice, I had a best friend Doan-Trang. I told you we found each other again, after 10 years apart, but that's a different story. We were doing making Mother's Day cards. I couldn't participate. Yeah, some people don't have a father figure in their life, but I had no mom. Kids in class couldn't really relate to me. I felt alienated, not because of race, not because of social class, because what I didn't have. Miss Sandy didn't know what to say at first, but she suggested that I wrote a card for my aunt or someone. Throughout school, I dread doing family trees. I dread writing about how my family celebrate holidays. Because, in short, we don't. After the little incident in biology, life went on. I stopped the tears. Celia showed me empathy; no one made a big fuss over me. Class was over, and lunch was spent in a Journalism meeting. I finished Of Mice and Men in Miss Clement's class. I get a lot done in that class, but I learn so little. After school, was a short meeting. Chris seemed to have a chip on a shoulder, but it's just a phase. His little act was useless, he couldn't keep from smiling in little moments when Isabelle made us laugh. He's no dictator. His definition of an authority figure is a little guy who never smiles. Smiling isn't a sign of weakness all the time (maybe submissiveness in chimps and apes). His bravado makes me laugh, rather than annoying me. I like getting on his bad side, I've been doing a good job. With other people, I'd be afraid to get them mad, but with Chris, I don't mind at all. Wow, but in the beginning of the schoolyear, it wasn't this way. Things could've gone so much differently, but I've done good for freshman year. So Louie brings in the nachos Danh got me, and I handed it to Cyrus. Then a barrage of people gather, hahah. I'd knew it, and Chris wanted people to put in their email to his laptop. Work was done soon enough, today was more of a adjustment day than a productive day. I'm fine with that. People left for better things, however some of us stayed in Mr. Dee's room until he told us to shoo. At the parking lot, I was happy with the sight of familiar faces. I chatted up people, but after an hour or so, my hands turned as purple as Annie. Annie's sweet, she doesn't diss cheerleaders. She told me she saw me cheering in Sports Bay Area, from last week's basketball game. How awesome. I was cold, I saw freestyle practicing in the cafeteria. Cheer was cancelled, but Maria was waiting. I asked her to come in, and we talked and watched the boys dance. Long comes in, MUN Talent Show cancelled! Wow, just after I invited Maria to attend. It's still okay though, Maria's brother gave us a ride home. I ate sweet and sour pork after getting home. That's my day.
Where are the Drug Dealers?
Monday, January 21, 10:38 PM
Well, the visit to the park was short. My dad drove Christine and me over to Gayle's house. I had an urge to tape something today and venture to the park. The weather wouldn't permit us to be out long, but we braved the gloomy skies and eye-strickening sights. We saw dead things, and this was in Blossom Hill. I used to dream of days like this, being with friends and strolling down the neighborhood. Part of the park was closed, and somehow the conversation drifted to drugdealing. Odd, I know. We walked to Espresso City; I wished that I wasn't as broke. I got a simple peanut butter cookie though. Gayle wanted to call Gab. She panicked, and he called back three times. We had to answer it, and we passed the phone across the table several times. Gayle did talk to him in a short phone call. It was funny to see her so nervous, but I could somehow relate to my first phonecall with a boy. Now that I look back, I still keep in touch with him and a bunch of people. It's nice. Gayle's mother took us back to the house. There were dinner rolls, I was interested in observing them. A egg wash, it was random of me to talk about my love of bread. Karaoke time, I seriously suck at karaoke. We went acapella and I enjoyed it better that way. We played Songs of the Moment, afterwards. I think the girls saw my boredom, we went to Gayle's room and looked up songs on Youtube. I showed them Spricket24, my role model. I played with Windows Movie maker earlier in the day, but it froze. Gayle went on Meebo, and one of the coolest things happened. Gayle talked to Gab and they hit it off. She was put into hysterics when Gab asked her to iceskating. That's one new years resolution she covered. We were really happy for Gayle, and it was enjoyable watching Gayle flail about in merriment. Seriously, it was worth it to come over. We called Nguyen to share the celebration. The night came in quickly, and eventually, my dad came to drive Christine and me home. Gayle has school tomorrow, I hope she has a good day. As we left, Gayle was still bouncing around. There's rain tonight, and I feel good for the most part. I knew something big was going to happen, these feelings I get are pretty darn precise.
Really Big Carrots
Saturday, January 19, 1:03 AM
So much on my mind. I was ready for the finals, but not the four day weekend. It doesn't seem appealing to me. I'm sorry, but it doesn't. I had a great week of school, and I really didn't want it to end yet. There's not enough to do during these days, and nothing to make up for not seeing some of the buddies. I don't know if it's a good time to have a crush again, the feeling of being attached connotes a possible feeling of being hurt. I'm rewatching Yakitate! Japan, to pass time by. Tonight, we cheered for the boys basketball game versus Evergreen. We got our bows, they're big; we resemble Minnie Mouse wearing them. They're cute, we'd have to admit. It was an odd decision to buy 23. It's not bad with only five cheerleaders, though we can't make it to competitions and such; we can bond and I can be myself around these girls. Mr. Powell was at the game, and he told me that the Lady Bears finished their season with sensational results. They made it to finals, and I'm glad to hear it. Next year's incoming freshmen are a talented bunch. They have their brains, and they have their athletes. Today's IB drama play was "Alice and the really really really huge carrots." They may sound wrong, and it probably is, like most of the lines in the play. The basic plot: Alice(Amy)'s mother is kidnapped. Alice meets Sam the Rabbit, they go down the hole which leads to Wonderland. Alice reads the Talon newspaper, which contains clues leading to her mother. Along the way, she is met by the fat caterpillar, Tweedle-Dee(Gilbert) and Tweedle-Dumbass(PJ), a brothel of girls led by a transvestite (Benito), visited by the Seven Dwarfs, and lastly; the two-sided queen (Norita) and the King (Parminder). The clues finally lead to Alice's mother(Kim). "Oh, Jeffrey! You found my mom!" Jeffrey hides the duct tape, "Oh, yes! I didn't know you would get here so quickly." "Thank you Jeffrey!" Jeffrey makes a run, and calls up Chris,"What? What do you mean you're with Nina?" Jeffrey is then approached by a mob. He is accused of placing false stories in his newspaper, due to the lack of articles. I got sort of confused as people jumped up stage and ran about. They stopped chasing Jeffrey and went through my row, throwing candy. It's to be noted that it was merely a row of three. The audience got candy, and I caught a Gheredelli 60% dark chocolate square. It's some good stuff. Well, yes I enjoyed the ending. I'm not sure but I got a feeling of deja-vu of this plot. So many sexual innuendos, but entertaining? There were sufficiently enough seats, but too many darn backpacks. I didn't get to sit next to all the people I wanted to and promised to, but we were right to come. Jeremy walked with me up until a big block after the big interesection. Thomas seemed down at first; I don't know why, but we'll get him cheered up. Haha, I act all stalkerish to him.
Kathy's curious food survey
, 12:30 AM
There is no need to sign up to fill out my survey and you can comment as a guest or using your Blogger account. I've always wondered about other people's eating habits. Take your time, and get back to me. Alright? =)
What is your current relations with food?
What is the first thing you remembered eating in childhood?
Did you like drinking milk?
What's the perfect snack to munch on while you're watching a movie?
What is your favorite dessert?
How many meals do you have a day?
Who do you eat lunch with?
Best chocolate you ever had? When was the last time you ate it?
What junk food do you binge on?
Favorite soda?
Favorite fruit juice?
During the summer time, Ice cream, popsicles, sherbets or frozen youghurt?
What food can you name in 3 different languages? If you aren't able to on the top of your head, google something.
One word to describe food.
What do you normally get out of vending machines?
How much does it cost?
Who's the chef in the family?
Name one cooking show.
Do you watch the Food network?
Who do you think will repost this?
I'm not talking to David unless its on Youtube
Thursday, January 17, 6:37 PM
Whoa, yeah! It's David's birthday and I'm a pushy person. People were reluctant to go, but the ones who did made my day. You can't satistfy everyone. I wonder how everyone is doing. David, Jennifer, Jose, Sunny and Danny came along on today's adventure. PE was nice, I've gotten the finals done with. Math wasn't a big deal, and we were out of school before I knew it. I was glutinious with the See's candy box of chocolates after school. I shared. We waited until Jose got out of flag detail. We hopped on the first bus downtown, set for the rest of the day. First off, Starbucks; we planned the rest of the day. After indulging in a Strawberry Creme, we headed to the SJSU activity center. Billards, it was and a good game as I talked to Gayle over the phone. I wished she could've been there. Jennifer broke her shyness when we came out of SJSU. I visited an art gallery today, and the SJSU store during the day. It was 3ish, Sunny wanted to get Hydration. We went, and I saw Jennifer smiling alot. Made me happy. I used up most of my moolah today, however it was worth it. As we were in front of MLK, 4 busses passed us by. Then Andrew appeared randomly, it was cool. I didn't recognize him at first. The ride home was hilarious, we were very loud. Gayle was screaming on the phone. From Sylvandale, Sunny and I walked to Dang's house. People were leaving; I went to cheer practice. Nothing really happened, and Coach Tanisha was nice enough to give me a ride home. Thank you. I had a good dinner, and now I'm back on the computer. =) On the sidenote, the guy who never smiles flashed a toothy grin today at me. I'm happy. Tomorrow is Biology and English Finals; I hope I'm ready.
Satisified
Tuesday, January 15, 9:42 PM
I should start blogging earlier, but things, mostly AIM conversations, come to distract me. We finished Moulin Rouge today in French class. I wish Satina didn't die so soon; I didn't enjoy the ending. Moulin Rouge went into the darker side of lust, reminiscent of Shakespheare in love, but this was sad. The journalism meeting was crowding Mr. Dee's room. Yesterday I did good in cheer, and it made me happier for the rest of the day. Along with the fact, Nguyen was nice enough to share with me tiramisu cake. I don't feel as happy today; I'm thinking too much. There was ballroom today, and I convinced Cyrus to give dancing another try. He's reluctant to try new things sometimes, but he really is a honestly nice guy. Today was another regular A day, but considering that tomorrow is shorter, I doubt I'd have much to write about. David's birthday is on Thursday. We'll be going out to eat with the buddies. He's considering Todai, however, we'll have to see how it turns out. He told me about that crazy homeless guy underneath the bridge today. I'm proud of David. He's a guy who has almost everything together, and is always willing to go places with us. Yeah, mostly it for today. Finals start tomorrow at 800 hours.
Kinder-Buddy
Friday, January 11, 7:42 PM
How would you feel meeting your long lost kinderbuddy? Damn good, that's what. We've grown up so much, now she's at Oak Grove. Last night was amazing.
Na Na Na Na Na
, 7:24 PM
Okay, I feel good. No denying it. I'm back from a little hyperness of cheer practice in my dad's room. Marryanne's chocolate brought my mood up. Ahaha, I don't feel like doing alot because I want to ride this great emotion. I was late to French class, but faced the interview class, with nearly perfect marks. I did better then I'd ever imagine. We were watching Moulin Rouge in class, it was very thrilling. It had Nicole Kidman in it, very obsene. It was sad to see such a gorgeous woman spitting out blood though, tuberculosis. Brunch passed quickly. We held a senate meeting today to discuss modifications to the school dress code. We want to impliment yellow as a color, and allow students to wear patterns. I didn't have much to say, but it was brought up that the Valentines dance was unoffically the "first chance to take off her pants dance." Indeed, I did share that with my classmates. Vanes was upset in class, I comforted her I hope. Lunch, I felt the love as strangers of all sorts fed me when I was too broke to get anything. PE went well, miss Davis said nothing of me being absent last class. Situp testing, I did not do well, but I was very hyper in class. I was free to dance and jump about. I didn't care what others might've thought. I awaited as Marryanne and Gayle were to visit campus. I was in Dahl Hall, stayed for a few minutes to watch some of the videos featured for Mr. Mach's class. To shorten it, I kept waiting for the girls. Marryanne did come. She brought me chocolate and we walked to Nguyen's house where no one was home. Linda caught up with Marryanne. Gayle was dropped off, and we proceeded back unto school campus. Now...Here's where the fun began. The campus wasn't as empty as I thought, in the afterschool table; there we sat, a group of freshgals. We were loud and obnoxious, bring great terror (or headaches) to the sophmores. Man, it's good being the underclassman; I got to be immature. Louie wasn't there, but we had his binder on the table. I hope Jessica would give it to him. Stacey was introduced to more classmates, most of them as friendly as ever. Dang and Nguyen came out of whatever they were doing, we had bundles of laughter. We parted ways when it was getting late. I walked home, and met a junior, Kevin. He said he saw me around, very nice conversation with him. He's in varsity tennis, and in chemistry. I got home, and like I've said, practiced for cheer. I was being a little bad, and ate the majority of the chocolates. I am very happy.
Bad Joo-Joo, or so we say
Thursday, January 10, 9:51 PM
Peter Pan's on my mind, but why so? Because I see a young man that wants to stay forever a little boy. It was fun today, and I believe when I have my mind on other things then things feel more natural. I don't have to leave any details out. I can tell you about class today, but that wasn't the fun part. I really enjoy B days as there's more work, and funnier classmates. The real fun began afterschool, in Mr. Winsatt's room. Samuel was in the room, and we weren't certain that people would come for the ModelUN impromptu speech class. However, the turnout was fine as time progressed. Eventually more people came, and the topics we dealt with were ridiculus. I can't say I fared well when Joo-Joo came into the room and told me to talk about "bunnies laying eggs." I guess it was something I wasn't ready for. Oh well, he pissed me off, but I got around to my witty remarks about him. Justice served, and to point out, I am broke for the rest of this week. Bummer, I know. Nortia delievered a wonderful speech as always. Ireno gave entertainment value with each topic he delivered. Payam shunned some of the subjects given to him, but he got around to doing fabulous. Other people were there, but I don't remember much of their speeches. Steven B. at least showed today. Speeches came from "how vegetables made us horny" to "how hell freezes over"; it was fascinating! In part of Payam's mention of the usual philliac vegetables; I gestured the "size and roundness" of the tomatos,"When you bite them, they flow down your chin like water." Then, the speech came to why cucumbers should be circumcized. Payam didn't know what it meant at first, but got his speech to a great finish. Ireno empathisized on how Gilbert was a pimp, repeating the word 5 times. I really debuted when the meeting was over and I was just amongst friends in a casual enviroment. Angel was introduced to our world of logics where potatoes were rocks and orange is actually yellow. I'm glad he got entertained. Payam had asked me "why lying was bad". My response came; I broke into half tear, half laughter,"Because...you tell a guy you like them, and then he hugs you and lies to you. telling you he likes you back, but he doesn't...and it could've been so simple to reject her but NOO." It was hysteria, really. Steven left soon, Payam never explained to us how wearing a tutu is a sign of manliness or how incest is a postive experience. Of course, I rather not speak of it either haha. I bonded with people and it was nice. Then John was with me as Payam left for wrestling. I got home, but no time for a nap. I went to cheer afterwards and came home ready to write about my day.
Monet's Garden
Wednesday, January 9, 11:23 PM
Short blog today, because my dad wants me sleeping earlier. It's Wednesday? Well I forgot it came by so fast, but I wished it was Thursday. In French class today we watched a cartoon about Monet's Garden. It was a film that supported pedophilia, there was a little asian girl by the age of 10 and and a man of 80 years age. I thought it was wrong, it was evidently supported that there was more then a neighborly love between those too. They were rompering around in a hotel room with one bed; they travelled in an airplane together. They had held an illegal picnic in Monet's Garden, where he poured her wine labelled "XXX". They used to word forbidden most of the film, and the little girl kept removing articles of clothing each scene. I didn't catch all the euthemnisms used to the film, as I was screaming my head off. Perhaps it is our sick minds that made us see the light of this film. In real life I would have nothing to do with an 80 year old man that was not a relative. Mr. Bloom, you sick bastard. My dad's telling me to start sleeping at eleven now, and I'll manage, but I must point this out. It was an awkward experience. I ditched PE today; it was my idea. Jennifer was a good enough buddy to accompany me. I was broke, she was sweet enough to buy me an apple tart from Happy Doughnuts. We bonded over our experiences with other people. She shared with me a bottle of water. It's a new thing being broke. We wondered what would happen without us in class; we wondered if we'd have a phonecall home. At the moment, it all felt right. We found ourselves again. We came back to school when people got out. We came back with confidence, we found Payam. Jennifer was introduced to classmates. Her shyness seemed to fade for the moment. Tina came in, I was happy. Louie was back from Qcup. It was a little victory for me today.
The Reckoning
Monday, January 7, 10:41 PM
Sorry for the recent emoness, I was sad. I know there are people out there that care for me. It was shown today, with the constant hugging, and shoulders to cry on. I haven't asked for it, but they knew I was having a hard time with things. Classmates cheered me up, those who couldn't be there physically were ready to listen to what I had to say. I am grateful for the people around me. I love all you guys. Thanks so much. So down to the actual things I did today, not much. Danny showed me the Wong Fu productions and it got me inspired to follow what I wish for. Everyone should, right? At least, having the chance to do what you want. They should, but not everyone does; it's just too bad. The guy kept popping up in my face around 5 times today, with a happy greeting each time. Payam showed concern about my wellbeing, it tooke a real gentleman to do that. Samuel lightened up my day by asking why I was staying up so late, and thanking me for an early Happy Birthday. Danny and Michelle were with me last night, and during the break being my beams of support. I owe them. Louie and David were the ones I complained to the most, sort of embaressing, but they listened nonetheless. Gayle was my everything, wingwoman, and travel companion. I do have people who love me. It was Free Hug day today, and it brought out the best of me.
Way Back into Me
Friday, January 4, 8:41 PM
I was planning to break my heart today. Possibly, well or to....Seek the truth, I had a mission for the truth. It didn't work out, I woke once more and felt a sudden hopelessness with the weather. I was home, and at 3, I called Gayle. I would finally take charge of my own life. I didn't want to be a sad person in 2008, I was ready to do something before everything passes me by. I know people care about me, and the radio's helped. No more sad songs, happy songs filled with memories. I met Gayle at the library, and I saw this YB boy again. We finally talked, and perhaps we'll be seeing more of each other; he's been around the library alot. The weather was crazy, but it didn't affect my neighborhood. Apparently other people were'nt as fortunate, and their electricity was cut. Their blocks were flooded. David, well came back from Lake Tahoe just before a blizzard came. I'm glad to have him back. The library was relaxing, we talked as always. We need more places to be. I remember being in San Fran and introducing ourselves to so many contacts. Oakridge afterwards, it was a long car ride with brilliant conversation. Both places we've been to was so empty, but I always managed to see familiar faces. We met more people, and Gayle got on Facebook at the Apple store before going home. We had Cheetos, Subways and a iced tea lemonade before departing. I got home, able to relax. I didn't waste all this week being depressed. I'm glad.
Littlest Things
Thursday, January 3, 7:43 PM
It starts out with a physical test, climbing gates. Hopping them, like my childhood days. The whole group was for ROTC or something. I used to be very good at this challenge, but I paced myself. David was ahead of me, but I knew he'd let me catch up if I wanted to. I don't know if I did, because it was done with soon enough. The instructor told me I finished in 10:51. She told me she preferred it when people paced themselves rather then getting injuried by rushing. That we "should take it like walking down." I didn't get that part; I asked her and no reply. People were walking ahead, the thing was finished with. I saw Eric with a crowd of people and waved. Funny thing was, I said, "Davis should be here." Dennis pointed Davis out. We were getting back to class, and I felt good for finishing. I said "I feel like a hug." Right in front of me were Robert Tan and Irie, so of course they heard me. However, I really didn't want to touch Irie...He used to be bitchy and afterall, was Gayle's former crush. I grabbed for Robert first, and he hugged me back. Somehow my arms are around both Irie and Robert. We walk, and Mimi comes up with two boys of her own, "having fun Kathy?" Not like I really care. Irie leaves for his classes, and Robert and I just laugh. Then he asks me, "Would you like to do it with me?" and innocently, I said, "Do what?" and I smiled. Mimi was watching... Robert walks me to class, I was in Miss Mirham's class upstairs, a room unfamiliar with odd numbers at the front door. I guess I was in the right class because I was there when she took role. I turned my back, talking to one student, but when I turned back, a bunch of classmates appeared. Mimi was there, talking about me. "She's the one with the boyfriend.",and strange things like that, but who the hell did she think was my boyfriend? Not Robert hopefully, but I knew I'd get this straightened out eventually. I still liked Gilbert. Class was weird, Miss Mirham (who looks like Winterstein), went on about media advertising, but I kept yelling out things about Gary Coleman. Last time, there was a picture of Gary Coleman and then I said something really obsene that made Thy say, "I couldn't help laughing this time." Something about Gary Coleman grills. The dream ended.
Littlest Things Interpreted
, 7:49 AM
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things Dreams of you and me It seems, it seems That I can’t shake those memories I wonder if you have the same dreams too...
Those are lyrics from Lily Allen's Littlest Things. I've looked over my dream. I supposed I can put some logical sense into them. I think the foreign classroom is the one from the building they're constructing at school now. It's to be opened this February. Hopefully, it won't mess with our class schedules too much. It was a queer dream since I had no contact with my friends in this moment. I wonder what it signifies. This morning I woke up early, but I found myself unhappy. "With nothing to wake up to, so I'll let someone who cares about me wake me up." I'm feeling better now. There's a rainstorm going on, but the temperature is lovely. I'm supposed to be out again tomorrow. I was planning on the library today, but I was so gloomy. I feel better now, because after every major event in my life, bad weather follows. This means I've grown somehow.
